Getting ready for the holidaze

First post in over two years...wow.
I'm about to leave for Baltimore in two days with my little brother to see my parents in their new city. I am unprepared in every way that one can be unprepared for travelling. However, I am really excited to see my mother and step dad. I haven't seen either of them since summer, and I can't wait to see the progress of David's afro, and my mom's face. I finally get to meet my step uncle on a trip to Philedelphia, where we will also be doing the Philly Cheese Steak tour. I think this will be a great Christmas experience. Foreign to be sure, but it will definitely be something new.
I should really pack.

Goodness

I wonder why in the world I have smoked so many cigarettes today...

I've had at least an entire pack.

Maybe it's stress that is not manifesting itself in a concrete way in my brain, but today, I've felt a pathalogical need to smoke, and got pretty much nothing from it. I don't feel a nicotine buzz at all anymore. I had like 4 back to back, and like nothing.

I should just stop now while it's still easy.

OH MY GOD!! !BARACK OBAMA WON!!!!!!!

McCain just conceeded defeat!!! OBAMA FOR THE WIN!!! oh my god, I am so fucking excited!!!!

I helped make history today with my vote.

338 electoral votes to 156!! A LANDSLIDE. He more than doubled McCain's electoral votes already, and they aren't even done counting!

Of course, Alabama went McCain, damn us. Oh my lord, I'm all of a dither!!

44th president of the United States is Barack Hussein Obama. Yay America! Change at last!

Suck it Republicans. Honestly, in my opinion, the only people who vote republican are either stupid, selfish (i.e. rich and greedy), overly religious, or totally insane.

FUCK YEAH!

I am afraid of next Tuesday

I know that November 4th means finally ending this insane and way too long presidential race, but I'm dreading it to a degree I cannot even express.

What if McCain wins? (Obviously, I support Obama) Seriously, I don't know what I will do if McCain wins. Move? Kill Myself? Take an Assassination Vacation (i.e. Drive to D.C. and commit cold-blooded, politically motivated murder of the president. Just kidding NSA and Homeland Security!) Weep...forever?

But on the flip side, what if Obama wins and dosen't fix anything. I think I would be just as upset. Especially after everything Obama supporters have had to endure during this race. Having to listen to people's blatant racism in life and on T.V. screens is just...soul destroying and makes me afraid for and ashamed of this country. 

I've even had to listen to it in my own family. My dad and his two brothers drop the N word like there is nothing wrong with it.  My dad tries to defend himself by saying that black people call white people "Cracker", so why shouldn't he use the word? He also points out that black people call one another the N word, so why shouldn't he be able to? SERIOUSLY?! I repeat, SERIOUSLY?!?!?! My own father and uncles...I am so ashamed that I am related to them that it kind of hurts. I can't help but hate my own dad a little, which is an unpleasant feeling, but having a racist asshole as a father is just...awful. Even my 60 something paternal grandmother is okay with Obama, but after moving back to Alabama from California, my father morphed into the equivalent of a hunting, tobacco-chewing, octagenarian douche bag. Blergh. There aren't even adequate words to express how unpleasant it is.

And old people...Holy crap. Old people in this country just SUCK. They all think Obama is a Muslim. Even if he were, what the fuck does it matter?! There is nothing wrong with Islam. In fact, on paper, it is a better religion than Christianity. Yes, their crazies are more numerous, more motivated, and less lazy than the American Christian crazies, but the fringe is not the whole.

There are also these insane websites that call Obama a homosexual, a crack cocaine user, and possibly a murderer. People read this shit and BELIEVE IT. Seriously?! People who believe everything they read, in my opinion, should just be shot and put out of their misery. There is no point in living if you are that gullible/dumb.

rant rant rant rant rant. Amen.

Politics make me antsy and upset.

Yay for the A!!

I got a straight up 100 on my Cultural Anthropology paper!! The only one in my class too! Ah, to do well in school...It feels good.

I've smoked way too many cigarettes today.

In other news, on Saturday I went to an Obama fundraiser in Tuscaloosa. It was rather subdued as it was mostly comprised of uber-nerds. And I do mean uber. I met a very nice girl named emmie who is a German Studies major, who is currently focused on translating/studying reformation aged works by German authors. She was fucking cool. It's suprising what a hotbed of intellectualism the UA is. While it is largely comprised of drunken fools/coke heads majoring in pre-wed, you'll find some AMAZINGLY smart people. But like...a lot of them. Way more than can be found at UAB. 

My school is like a beakon for either poor people, dumb people, and as of last spring, an INFLUX of trendy hipster boys. The kind that have wavy, almost girl length hair, wear fedoras and skinny jeans, and hip little sneakers with "ironic" tee shirts. 

As of spring semester 07, I hate UAB even more than usual. I am doing better, and I like most of my professors, but the new people fucked it up.

Anywho, back to the fundraiser. The guy who hosted it had the BEST house. It was not too big, and not too small, and fantastically put together. He had interesting books, and every season of Good Eats, not to mention all the extended editions of the Lord of the Rings movies! There were lots of neat conversations, and polite discourse, which frankly, even though I am still a teenager I find utterly refreshing. It fills me with hope for my future. One filled with talks about great works of literature I have yet to read, and the merits of one French New Wave filmaker as opposed to the other. I long to be grown up already. To skip the next few years of my life, and to be about to complete my thesis for my master's degree in Anthropology is where I want to be.

Whatever. One must accept what one has with grace. Hopefully I'll find some.

is it crazy to want sleep at three A.M?

According to my rude and very irritating roommate Iva, it is "Crazy" to want sleep at three A.M.
I've had to call the R.A.'s up to my room twice already to make Iva and her crazy rude out of town guests shut up. It has not worked at all. In fact, now they are slamming silverware drawers and dropping things in the metal sink to make noise, and saying that I am "straight trippin', man" and "crazy."
Literally, she makes me I wish I were already of a racist temperament, so that I do not acquire racial prejudices.
Further, she invited the two OTHER loudest bitches from Selma up for the weekend BEFORE EXAMS WEEK, without asking any of the other FIVE roommates if it was okay. She is a bitch of the highest order, and thinks one can win arguments by being the loudest. She is literally the most selfish person I have ever met, and extremely inconsiderate.
Now they are talking about me and using many racial epithets for white people...
I hate my life

Hullo!

Banana Hammock.
Love,
Jesus